Evolution

Dear Jesus,

If there is one thing that sounds totally ridiculous; it's girls that says will you marry me? and would carelessly throw themselves at someone better looking whom they don't even know personally or some "hot" guy from the movie which they happen to see in person. By the way, "hot" is one word that I appalled. I don’t like how most people use that word and put it out of context.

I understand that Teenage girls now a days re more liberated than we used to before. But geez, for goodness sake where are their brains at? I hope it didn’t went to their behinds. It is very disappointing that most girls are acting promiscuous and floozy. Maybe some girls are acting the same way on the past, but today it’s more of a trend. You hear one story after the other and it’s all the same.

Perhaps you could look down at us and might laugh at how stupid humans can sometimes be.

I think the irony of being a female is the idea that you’ll always have to wait. Wait till something happens, wait till he profess his feelings, wait till someone likes you, wait till someone acknowledge you. Wait…wait…wait…

Don’t get me wrong, I’m a feminist. We’re pretty much on the same page. I’m not being insensitive about women’s feelings. I reckon that every girl/woman/lady in the world have some sort of a link to each other; that we feel each others pain. Even a simple story as dysmenorrhea, all women can relate to. Still acting vulgar is one behavior every female should not resort to.

Sincerely,

Jen

Way too hard

Dear Jesus,

This is really something, I have put so much thought on. I have been thinking about this for so many weeks and I just want to get this off my chest. This would probably be the first time I'd talk to you about this (not even my close friends). I've always put my feelings in secrecy. In witch often times people that surrounds me think that I’m fine because I act like everything is alright even though I’m so crushed inside. But I don’t blame them for having such impression towards me.

All the pains and struggles and or happiness I have carried all these years are my own. I can’t show it to the world. I know I’m not perfect, but if there’s one thing in side of me that is pure that’s love. In fact, love is the only thing in this world that is absolute. I can not imagine anybody who can fake love- because if there is, that person is a sham. You know how many times I’ve been hurt and I admit that I have unintentionally hurt 3 people.

I know that you know how sorry I am. I guess there is no polite word to address rejection. Saying NO is already much and it depend how the receiver accepts it. I don’t know if how I would react if someday our path would cross, that would probably be one of the awkward moments. If ever they see me would they acknowledge my presence or would they look away and pretend that I’m a stranger… I really don’t know. I’m glad I don’t see them that much even though we live in one community.

I think it’s really good if you have some sort of foundation with someone. Like being friends rather than mere acquaintance because if for some reason you’re path diverts you tend not talk to each other anymore. It’s always good to have something to fall back into. I hope the number stops there, though I know I don’t control everything. I will try as much as possible to be no longer means of disappointment.

Sincerely,

Jen

Overwhelmed

Dear Jesus,

I thought external struggle is what I need to battle. I didn't realize that inner struggle is much more harder to combat. All my life, since I had gained consciousness of this world. A lot of people have been mean to me. Maybe because I was always a quiet kid. I know people are irritated by that. That is why when I come across people that are good to me; I have never been so thankful by the kindness that they showed me.

This has caused me so much pain even until now. So one day I decided, I will not allow anybody to hurt me. That I will surpass if not equal their behavior towards me.
Little did I know that I have turned myself into heartless being and that I am no worst than them.
It's hard to be coherent when you're clouded by you're emotions.

I'm so thankful with the kind of relationship I have with you now. You always keep me back on track and I know with you I will never be astray.

Some people say bad things about you. But that's their opinion, I have mine. I know that our relationship is completely pure and just. I don't have any reason to be angry at you.
I need not soul searching. I learn from life's everyday lessons. I have so much faith in what life teaches me. I realize a lot of things as day goes by. Life...death...karma...

I know that all roads leads to you Sir. Whatever happens to me, whatever will become of me. I will always be you're humble servant; fulfilling my life's purpose.
Till next time..

Sincerely,
Jenny